I have had a very interesting couple of weeks. Apparently I work too much and have too much school and runaround like a chicken with my head cut off and have been seriously living off of starbucks frap's. My roomate and her botfriend are suspicious of one of my friends (they think she's not straight). They think she's using me to get ahead in life (she likes the way my brain works and certain conections), which I appreciate the concern and all but I think everyone does this to some extent in life.... I do see how they reached this conclusion (which I will not go into now).  However I will continue to hang out with her until she gives me a serious reason not to trust her. Then another one of my good friends who has been recently "talking" with one of my other friends thinks she (other friend) has something in her eyes that says she cant be trusted, that given the opportunity that she will stab a person in the back to get ahead. Which I already kind of saw because she does like to talk (a lot) to the point that I cannot even study with her because nothing will get done..... I have never told her or the other friend that my roomate doesn't like anything personal about myself anyways so I'm not to concerned ..... but still it makes me more cautious than I already was................well I have to get back to homework.

 Well today was my 1st chemistry test of the semester. I think I did good and I was the first one done...................I really do not want to jinx myself so that is all I'm saying about it. On the subject of school I start UCR today to be exact in a little over an hour. The teacher sent out an email about the stuff for the 1st class being available online last week. So I read all but one article but I did not take notes on it (I did highlight) because i just did not have the time. well she sent out another email yesterday with an attachment of the roadmap for the 1st day of class, with detailed questions and statements we should be thinking about for the articles for the first day of class.........well I had the intention to look it over and go back through the readings if I had time after my chem test... which I do but I'm kind of destressing/ veging in front of the computer in the library at school. I think I decided screw it so I'll be behind. This is my last weekend of freedom for the most part until christmas break. I have plans to go the movies and starbucks tomorrow night with a friend and I'll be working and doing homework. No more procrastinating starting saturday. On another random topic I refuse to be on the cake a day diet and reserve that position for the person originally designated to it. That is all for now time to go surf the net....

So I have started my Chem 1A class and I'm kind of bored in it at this point because it's just reviewing what we did in Chem 2A. Which I aced and have been tutoring for the last year and a half. This is in fact one of my downfalls, because when I get bored I stop paying attention and then I mess up on stupid crap. So, my goal is to not go down this path... again. It has happened before, I got B+ (s) a couple of times where I could have easily pulled out an A if I hadn't got bored and payed more attention. (These were actually my favorite classes/subjects). Anyways my goal for this academic year is pull straight A's even if it kills me.


On another matter I am sooooooooooo bored. I even did some Chemistry problems just to kill time. I cannot go anywhere because I have no money. My current plan for this evening is to shower once my roomates leave (I usually do not feel as crappy after taking a shower), eat something, and watch some more of the first season of DEXTER or possibly watch something else.

I have such a cushy job... here I am sitting in a call center which I left my office to do. (Basically I have phone duty). I have received 2 calls , for the last hour and a half I have been chatting surfing the web. This really isn't that much different from what I do everyday, mainly there is a lot of snacks and waterbottles. WOOHOO. On a more serious note my friend's 6 year old daughter was admitted to the hospital today, beacuase she has been throwing up non stop since saturday. I am going to visit her later. My chem class starts on tuesday and I'm actually looking forward to it..... I've been so bored. My other classes do not start until the end of september. For laborday weekend I am skidadeling to my rents house and bringing my roomates dog so he does not bug her and her guest. I'm hoping to hang with my sisters over the weekend maybe go see a movie or something else that involves airconditioning. Well got to get back to pretending I'm working.

I just saw the new Harry Potter movie and it was awesome. I will not spoil it for others but everyone should see it. The best part I think was the company I was with: my mom, younger sister, best friend and her husband. Anyways it was fun, another cool thing is that I get to see my best friend Heidi again on wednesday for girl talk......I cannot wait because there are sooo many things we need to talk about (stuff I cannot really discuss with others).............yeah...........oh on friday I tutored 13 different students all at once from two different chemistry tutors, standing/ knealing on a desk with computers to reach the whiteboard......go me :) I am almost done tutoring for the summer because their final is at the end of this week (and I have been instructed not to die before then).

I'm a little frustrated... I hate having all this pressure to decide what I want to for the rest of my life..... right now! I've went through many career paths during my first two years of college and I thought I had decided on what I wanted to do the rest of my life. Now my mentor is trying to convince me (well for awhile she has been trying to convinving me to go into Primatology) and now she has decided that if I don't want to be a Primatologist then I should go to medical school. While I appreciate her confidence in me, the thought of medical school never occured to me. She's told me before that I shouldn't do Forensic Anthropology. She said one time it's because I do not ask enough questions.... well the thing is that I think of a lot of questions but don't ask her because I don't want her to think I'm a complete dumbass and she doesn't make it easy to ask her .....why? Because I can read minds, ok so not really but I am a very good listener and can pick up on the hints of how much work and how busy she is............anyways I'm tired of the conversation always starting but it never finishes because of distractions. I'm all for looking at different carreer paths but it's a scary and I need help because I don't know what I'm suppose to be doing . Sometimes I wish someone would just tell me what to do, it would make life so much easier. Anyways the classes I want to take that I have yet to because of lack of time and money. In order to take these classes I would have to cut back majorly on my "TA" stuff for her, and work in general which I cannot afford to do. Why must I be such an idiot in one of the most important areas of my life... I'm so uninformed on so many things and this is just another thing to add to the list. I think it just scares me because what if I'm not good at these things that people think I would be........

So last week bees decided to take over my place. They kept dying and more were still there, we had kept all the doors and windows closed as well as the fireplace. Yet we still could not figure out how they kept getting in...... and then finally they got to much to ignore so my roomie bought a shopvac to start sucking them into (did I mention they decided my room was the "IT" spot). Anyways so we get David to come and do this manly work and he gets them all off of the screen in my room and a hole is discovered in the screen to our surprise until we start vacuuming where they had been chilling in a corner/ roof spot (again by my room) and a HOLE was discovered that had not been there before so as David stuck the vacuum upto the hole and bees kept coming through. It was then decided that we had seroiusly pissed off the bees (did I mention their hive is outside my window) because we were also sucking the bees up from the hive on the outside. We then proceeded to tape the hole up for the meantime because it was a difficult place to reach. We sprayed some RAID through the screen again bees pissed off. David then thinks if he just ets on the roof he can spray the hive... he gets up there and that's when we realize it no longer is a hive but a damn swarm of bees. So roomie and I tell him it's not worth it because a couple of bees started flying near him. There was one kamikaze bee who flew around him in a circle twice and then stung him right between the eyes (luckily he is not allergic). We call the bee people to come and they give us the news that apparently they had been there for a year and a half (before my time here but around the time my roomie had problems last time.... where they would die on her porch in layers) and they removed a 100 pounds of honey!

Lesson of the day: David's our hero!

I'm sitting in the living room slighltly freaking because there are bees/wasps (whatever you want to call them ...I personally am not getting close enough to find out)  in my house.........up by the window and it's starting to freak me out because I feel like any second they will realize that there are people sitting on the couch and they don't actually have to stay by the window................for a while I was able to stay in denial by not looking up at the buzzing sound bcause I was hoping it was just big flies but I looked and there are more than I count with one hand.........................

I went to Las Vegas kind of spur of the moment for one night with my friend Nadia. It was awesome and just what I needed to destress from school. Well that's all I shall write afterall what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas.

Ok so this whole eating, sleeping, breathing Chemistry is overrated especially since I'm not taking the class and am tutoring it. This is not helpin gmy whole eating right sleeping eing alert issues. Without Starbucks everyday apparently I do not function as sharply as normal.

So freaking frustrated I want to dive into my senior thesis but I cannot seem to find the diving board!

On an unrelated topic people piss me off....ok so back to my "work"....... I wanted to blast out my ear drums just so I wouldn't have to here someone talk because they always seem to bug me and today was no exception.... I felt like she was always in my bubble (which she was) hello there is a whole other desk to work on just becasue I moved something near me for a sec does not mean you can't move it back to the other side of the cubicle...... because of this physical discommfort I just wanted to get up and leave (which I did do later with a bounce in my step). I must reiterate that my ipod has saved me from many situations where someone could be hurt (and not me).........

Side note: I got all sorts of awesome music from my friend .................. which makes me happy :)

I think later this week I will post a list of things I want to do this summer......

You know what is lame sitting in on (working in a classroom) for 5 hrs count them 5 hours of Chemistry.....stuff I already know............. towards the end I stopped taking notes because I know conversions and significant figures cold........... at least the teacher is cool....she is really nice and easy to talk to... I was a little nervous to meet her because I didn't know anything about her, but it all worked out fine....... I get to go do another presentation in 25min for a genetics class (this class is awesome)....write now I'm sitting at work listening to my marvelous ipod which stops me from killing people............I LOVE zoning out and ignoring the world.......well got to go my boss is back and will want her computer

peace